Mulesqb still getting kicked in the a$$

[mulesqb]

Thanks Phoenix - I guess I'm afraid of what she will do with the couple of months apart. I'm afraid that maybe the grass will be greener in her mind and I'll lose her all over again. If she starts going to IC twice per week maybe i can ride this sitch a little longer until they make progress. She is just so different. Now she is treating me very nice. I wish we could just sell the house and move and buy a new one away from this situation. But I think if I bring that up she will run and think the legal sep is the way to go again.

I spoke to the boys on the way to the Mets game last night (what a terrible game!). They are just hurting very badly. They say that they are just so mad that all she wants to do is spend time with the neighbors. They know they are acting badly but they just can't help it. They told me a story about the day that she hit me with the legal sep. They said that when she put on her bikini and went over there they came up to my room and saw me sitting very dejected. They then went out and went over to their house and snuck in the garage. S14 took out the neighbor's boots and urinated in them while S10 went into their house and hid the remote control that I helped them pick out. This is how lost my kids are. They think that was the right thing to do. I told them that while their hearts are in the right place that was an awful thing to do. That is thinking like the neighbor - not us. I have IC tonite - I am going to talk about bringing them in.


They also said that she won't let them do anything at home (they are now off from school) and gets mad at them on the drop of a dime. When i got home yesterday, I thought just the opposite - I thought she was trying very hard.

Last night in bed I felt a little exasperated. The boys and I really had fun at the game despite the outcome. MY S10 asked for a foam finger (he never asks for anything---EVER) so i got him one. He was having so much fun with it. When I went to bed I decided to stay as far to miy side as possible - really for no reason. A funny thing happened. A couple of times during the night she kicked me which meant she really moved over from where she usually is. When I awoke this morning she was pretty much in the middle of the bed which is where I normally am. The strangeness continues.