Quoting jethro: Funny thing happened while I was mellowing out at Yoga last night. An odd thought crossed my mind when my mind was supposed to be "clearing:" What if I'm purposely hanging on to the pain because it gives me an edge and doesn't make me forget that I need to keep DBing? Have I become used to being the martyr? Am I using my "pain" as a weapon in some way? Am I sabotaging my own efforts to really try and make things work out?
I don't know. I can't help but wonder if some of these things are true. I'd like to hear from some of you guys about this. Sage?
jethro
How is it that cyber strangers who will likely never meet can know each other so well? As I was reading your paragraph about possibly holding onto the pain I was thinking...hmmm...I have some thoughts (and first hand experience!) with that....you know (!!!) I chuckled when I got to the end of your post.
I'll be back...I've got some work to do under deadline but I'll definitely stop in again with my 2 cents this afternoon.
Oh, and jethro, btw, I was thinking of you (and what you're going thru) this morning driving into work and did want to say that it makes perfect sense to me that w's recent disclosure would bring you emotionally (and hurtwise) back to the initial "finding out about the a" feelings...probably doesn't help any -- but I know that I would feel that way.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
What if I'm purposely hanging on to the pain because it gives me an edge and doesn't make me forget that I need to keep DBing? Have I become used to being the martyr? Am I using my "pain" as a weapon in some way? Am I sabotaging my own efforts to really try and make things work out?
