Thanks Shiny. I suppose you're right. I know she is feeling stronger about our R, but am I?

Funny thing happened while I was mellowing out at Yoga last night. An odd thought crossed my mind when my mind was supposed to be "clearing:" What if I'm purposely hanging on to the pain because it gives me an edge and doesn't make me forget that I need to keep DBing? Have I become used to being the martyr? Am I using my "pain" as a weapon in some way? Am I sabotaging my own efforts to really try and make things work out?

I don't know. I can't help but wonder if some of these things are true. I'd like to hear from some of you guys about this. Sage?

jethro