Meanwhile, I've let go and realized that I don't think I can be with her ever again. I love her, but she is a damaged person.
I hear ya!!! Have been reading your story a little, thanks for posting. Feel like I have nothing constructive to say (very early in process for me) other than I can understand.
Have a good day.
Me:36 M:16 D final: 08/09 Ds:10&5 Ss:8&3 Bomb 3xPA 200 sexual encounters 15/06/08