another date set today!

[jandn]

Heres the email I wrote yesterday in response to her mediation and about us getting along so well and call me later so we can talk about doing things different until then if you'd like?

"We can talk after the kids go to bed, dont want to bother you at work. Heres something you ought to check out after the comments you made yesterday:) Hope you had a wonderful day at work, adios amigo, http://30daysexchallenge.com/ (my name)"

[LosingSunshine]

No expert here but I asked my C today about my WAW still calling me honey. In my case, it is a term of endearment and to what extent is it habitual we just don't know. The moment I bring it up though, is the moment she'll stop using. To me, still hearing honey, is comforting and sometimes confusing but it leaves me feeling that there is hope that thinks will work through.

[LosingSunshine]

Oops. Responded to a much earlier post. Rookie mistake.

[jandn]

Its ok, must have been about the "we" stuff. But I do agree once you point it out they will stop.

Anyways, about C, she just called back while I was driving and in texting with my sister. Well, I get off the phone text sis i got appt tomorrow, she replies with "just you" I text back "ya no reason for her to go or know". I get a msg "Huh?" Its my W i accidentally sent it to her! Then W sends another "Wrong person?" I havent responded and probably shouldnt.

So I tell my sis about it and says "lol oh no". I so no, I think its pretty awesome! Am glad have appt will C tomorrow.

[jandn]

Just got back from support group. I was the only one that attended and guess is what I wanted. There were two other other ladies that could be my mom and another graduate showed up later. These 3 have been filling in for the head guy and his wife that usually run it. Was on grieving your losses.

That line about how the WA usually had been grieving for some time and not feeling like the LB came up in this session. But I got to spill my guts a little bit (ok a lot) and they got to hear how I want this marriage. So at the end when we prayed, they included bringing my W and family back together just like I do when I pray. Just really nice to know people understand you and feel for you.

Well kinda excited about going to the C now after work tomorrow. I have a pretty good idea I know what C will say, but guess its kinda good to get reassurance from C and maybe some good tips I havent thought of.

[jandn]

I always feel blah when I have kids over cause have to wake up so early. Wonder what mood W is going to be in since never responded to her yesterday. And S tells me how he is going to a new place next week. Yes W mentioned checking out another place, but didnt say for sure he was going. Another control thing for W.

So I post then go look at phone and W has texted I can meet you somewhere so you dont have to come all the way down here. Im not stupid you arent "here" its on your way home. What fun.

[jandn]

Dropped kids off and yep, W asks *what was up with that text?* the wrong one i sent W was talking about. I said o, nothing W says *was it about me?* said no. W says *was it about ur gf* i said no i dont want one of those. W was really smiley and laughy the whole time about it but i kinda was in a daze as what 2 say. I knew i was going to get asked all that and i erred probably. So i asked what time her lunch, W raid *why you going to come eat lunch with me?* no just might call u. S said daddy gets to eat lunch with u, thats no fair? W had to said no he isnt. so we will c. could see eyeliner in her eyes, always like that after a night out.

[jandn]

Thinking if i do meet l

[jandn]

Thinking if i do and if i should meet W for lunch what i could stop and get her. Hard to suprise her at work bcuz its at a hospital and works in diff dept almost everyday.

[jandn]

Think i will show up and hug her and leave.