Well, guys, I'm reeling a bit right now. I keep finding out about other crap about my W's A. It's getting to be a bit much.
So, what I never shared with you guys was the fact that when my W finally confessed, she told me that she did everything with OM except have intercourse. Now, I pressed her on this a couple of times afterwards because it's a bit hard to believe, but I kind of ended up believing it... Well, as what happens with me, I tend to think about something, lock on it real hard, think of all the angles, then form a hypothesis. Yes, it's a curse sometimes...
So, on the way home in the car yesterday I really began to think about this particular subject, and given different things she's said in the past, I came up with a variety of reasons why what she was telling me wasn't true.
She could tell I was distant when I got home, but I didn't address it yet because I wanted to think about it more. This morning at work I wrote her a long e-mail explaining why I didn't think she was telling me the truth. Yup...I got my response back...and naturally my assumptions were correct. Her e-mail was nice and thoughtful, but I'm SOOOOO sick of these lies. Had she told me to begin with, I know I would have been able to handle this better...handle it all at once. To have someone admit and confess, tell you they've told you everything, yet continue to lie sucks. Yeah, many of you have experienced this too...
Although admittedly I had blinders on for a while, thinking that perhaps it wasn't a full-fledged deal, it really was...with all of the toppings that go along with it. In a way, I'm not surprised, but I am at the same time. I feel awful. Remember, this is all via e-mail because I have a roommate in my office. I just wrote back telling her that I needed some time to think...that I'd come home, get the kids and bail and do something with them. I feel like I need some kid-time and I don't want to talk to her about it now.
I don't feel like being nice. I don't feel like being understanding. I feel like beating the crap out of OM.
If I posted her e-mail you guys would say, "now now Jethro, she's home and committed and blah...blah...blah..." I don't want to hear that guys...I just don't...
