New to this forum and need help..

[tmarie]

Update..
I have kept myself busier than usual these last few weeks. GAL is alot of work and working on my marriage while my H is out of the country was very difficult "Acting As if" has taken some of the tears away the last few days. And the counseling sessions have help me, But praying has really helped me release...

My H came home today I picked him up at the airport, no physical affection of any kind, although he was tired, I desperately wanted to hug him and welcome him home. We had a nice ride home, just chit chat about his trip and about our D14 I said nothing about M.. Once we got home I got a call from a girl friend recieved terrible news regarding another friend, so I apologized for having to leave and went to aid her. A couple hours later when I returned home, we chatted for a bit and decided to go to bed. Needless to say, I haven't been sleeping well so after trying to sleep I got up for a bit.. When I returned to bed he said he couldn't sleep and intiated ML... Still can't sleep so here I am... Wondering if my 180 is working...