Is it stupid of me to have expected him to actually call me? Because its 11:20 and he has not called me for the first time in the two months that we have been peicing to talk about our day (I go bowling with my dad)? He usually asks how I bowled and Tells me about his evening (he's always at a bar).
I cant help but think that I am just putting up with some major disrespect and blatent alcoholism at its worst.
He is all of a sudden mad at me and distant becuase I was crying and hurt about him telling me Saturday on the way to a rest./bar that I should be forwarned about another girl that is flirting with him and all over him that works there at this place that he frequents.
I guess if there is one thing that I have learned from this last year is that I need to have my own self-respect and not call him tonight to say "i love you" even though I really want to. I think that he needs some time away obviously and I asked him last night if he would call me and he said he would. So I guess I need to have patience.
And if and when he calls me I will be busy on wed. -shopping, and on thurs.-Trivia night, and then the weekends always something with my group of friends. So the next thing ya know it will be sunday- mine & my dads birthday & the bowling banquet.
I dont know if i should be putting up with a H who is at the bar 5-6 nights a week and always putting down my family and friends & constantly making very shallow new aquaintences.
BUT I LOVE HIM STILL. I am dying to call him but I dont think I will. I feel like he needs to come to me - I made the effort the last two nights and he has been distant. TIPPER
