Here's the recap - W moved out in October 07 after saying "ILYBINILWY". I did all the wrong stuff, then found DB in November and worked my butt off, but nothing got better. Found out about OM in Jan 08 - PA from summer 07 that had become EA. From end of January to beginning of March there were a lot of back and forths, including W moving back into house for 2 weeks. But she wouldn't put any energy into anything and kept saying she "didn't understand her feelings but couldn't deny them." So she asked me to wait 6 months while she tried a R with OM. I said no. She filed at the end of April. Everytime we see each other she cries. Wants to stay friends and have long conversations. Says we connect on many levels but she can't be the person for me. Left recently for 3 weeks, asked to take my truck, I agreed, and little contact since.
Meanwhile, I've let go and realized that I don't think I can be with her ever again. I love her, but she is a damaged person.
