Quote: So I'm wondering if you don't have the same thing going on in your R and your life too? I know you come and go but you've been here pretty consistantly since I have (even throughout my break) and I just thought maybe it's a possibility. Any thoughts on that?
hi calystra,
I know that your inquiry was not directed at me but I can't help but respond to you.
I actually just addressed this issue briefly (was cut off by visitors) on my thread yesterday.
sometimes I walk away from the bb inspired..happy...having learned something...etc..
but other times...what I read feeds into the negative spin and pulls me back to a yucky place then I must expend extra energy to push (thought stopping) away the thoughts that start to rummage around having read what I read on anothers thread.
I want to leave the bb...but don't want to leave...without the support or heck the ability to simply rant knowing someone would read it eventually...I wouldn't have made it through my sit so I don't want to leave....when I think about leaving or simply not reading anymore I feel guilty..I find myself thinking about the threads I read...the people become part of my life...but that is not good either...I've got enough to deal with here why should I expend extra energies on "strangers" but then I feel selfish...gee fine to use them when you need support but now that you are in a better place just leave them dry.
something to figure out I guess...
when to leave the bb? do we depend on it? does it depend on us?
