Hope4us struggle, part 6

[Hope4us]

Get home from work tonight and WW is quiet. I told her the top she had on looked nice (it's new) and she just shook her head yes without looking at me. I asked her if her boss was any better today and she said he was ok in a pretty quiet voice. So I thought, ok, she's pulling back again, I'll just let her alone. I started to go upstairs and she said to me "I fed the dog already". It was like she realized she was not being very receptive and wanted to change that. I told her thanks and went up and changed. Came down stairs and sat down to watch the news and she sat down and started talking. Just about little stuff, but I think she was really trying to make the effort even though she was down.

All in all I think it's good. She's down, but she's making the effort. I wonder if she's realizing what she's done and that's why she's down? Or she had a trigger at work and was feeling down, but made the effort when she realized how she was being.

I know I could be getting set up for the biggest fall ever, but it really seems like she's processing this more and more and as long as I continue to lovingly detach and GAL she'll get where we BOTH want to go, even if she doesn't realize it yet.

You know, I almost feel guilty that things seem to be going well. Not that everything is ok or that I don't know we still have a LOOOOONNNNGGGG way to go. With all the crap the last week or so on this board, I almost hate posting that it seems like we're making progress. Kat, Karen, S&S, SW, H4H, Jeff, LIS, TAL, Lodo and anyone else I missed, I hope this doesn't sound condescending, but I feel for you guys more than you know. You all have helped me through some rough times (You too Pup!) and I'll forever be in your debt.

Of course I know I just jinxed myself there. Probably a huge bomb coming my way.

Update in the morning.