That took a lot of guts, Cal, but Sage, as always, took it in good grace!
Sage, I've noticed some of what Cal and you have noticed about the same issues repeating. When you and I were "Newcomers" together, we were on pretty much the same page.
Then I felt that YOUR H came around a LOT faster than CJ did with tangible affirmations of his love and committment to you. Yet you continue to have these horrible doubts and insecurities.
I can't help but feel that the main difference between us has NOTHING to do with what our H's have done or are doing. It deals with our distant pasts and how that shaped us. You were taught some horrible lessons about trust growing up. I was not. You had suspicians and expectations of betrayal and abandonment from the get-go and I did not.
I'm SURE, you, the great analyst, have noted this too.
The main question is: how are you going to heal from your early lessons and retrain your brain and emotions and behaviours? Understanding "why" is the easy part, DOING something about it, I'm afraid, is much more of a challenge. It IS however, a challenge that I feel you are MORE than up to!!!
