I'm hanging in there. Even though I have done as much as I can, I still feel some days that I have failed. I'm lucky to have some good friends to let me know/assure me, that her choices are exactly that. In the whole E perspective it hurts, but I know that I have done what was asked of me and that the person I married was not a bad choice. A combination of bad choices on her part has put us where we are at. We're probably down to less then the last month. However, I have decided to focus on the positive, so I can make it through this whole mess.
One thing that kind of makes me angry is that this whole thing came to a head just because I had "a spine" about something and called W on one of her bad choices. I think instead of admitting a mistake, she just decided that the R was not worth working that hard for and threw this in my lap. The society we live in these days is deflect blame and let others pay for our mistakes. I really don't see how she will be able to teach morals and accountability to our kids after this. The older kids can read this one a mile away.
Prayer and reading keep me going. Hope all are doing well. Being Me, I don't know how someone can expect to put minimal effort into a M and expect to get much out. My heart goes out to you. Aud, I'm glad your having progress. WCW, put a spur in that old horse. Hopefully you can find a usefull 2X4 floating by your ranch these days. Apply liberally!
