Quoting lostlove:
that may be true but not in the fashion you are thinking...it was obvious that h was trying to get closer to you...with the exception of ow talks...perhaps he's just as scared as you have been and this sudden show of uncertainty...mistrust...etc..from you has put a damper on his efforts...(yes yes the ole...I'm doing all this and she's still not happy...she's still hung up on ow)


yah, I think this is a possibility. it's not that I want to him to feel hurt and confused but this possibility is more comforting to me than thinking that he's confused because he's not sure he really wants to be with ME, loves ME.

I wish I could help with this. Maybe if I'd stop feeling so insecure....



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would droping the rope entail not "needing" verbal reassurance from him that all is well?


yah. no doubt. I'm trying. I've been saying for a while that I need to figure out an outlet for all of my confusion and sadness -- that doesn't include seeking solace from h. right now.

3 positives from yesterday:

1. I did yoga for 40 minutes
2. the teacher in my class (social entrepreneurship) told me that she really admired my personal interest statement and asked me if I would consider enrolling in her Fall class (business practices of non-profits)
3. My class has a group project...I was bold about seeking out 2 people from the class to be part of the group (I liked their backgrounds). Usually I feel like a total social misfit but yesterday I tried a 180.

Sage


Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.