Where are you in your cycle, na? I know there are certain times that everything seems so bleak, it's tough to keep going. I've even decided that I will not make any decisions or start any discussions in the week leading up to the big event, because it's so easy to see only the negative during that time.
Your H has only been back for a short time. Perhaps you need to pull back to more basic DBing principles?
I haven't been able to make myself read any of my old posts, but you may be braver - there are likely to be reminders there of what worked and why you're putting in the effort to get your M to a better place.
