And the day came ...

[sage]

Hey guys -- well I don't feel so bad now knowing that YOU both are impatient with him, too! All three of us can go down that cheeseless tunnel!

No babysteps at all last night....I came home from school and sought him out. He was chilly. OK, I won't pursue.

Did some yoga. Asked him about an hour later if he was going to get food. Still chilly.

He finally came down and said he wanted food. We ordered it but he was being such a dick (sorry) that I told him I'd go get it myself. Rest of the night was spent in separate rooms. No kiss good night.

I kissed him goodbye this morning but that was our only contact in a long time.

I'm looking forward to hearing any responses/advice to Shiny's q re asking for reassurance. I suppose I could write him a letter -- the problem with that is that I tend to get hung up on expecting a reply.

A big part of me thinks that pushing him now is the wrong tactic. To be blunt, I don't think he's recommitted at all right now -- may just be his own fear, or his own continued ambivalence or the presence of ow or ...I don't know. But I think he needs to come to some sort of recommitment on his own. My big dilemma is to try to strike the balance between not being a patsy (like last night I just could not put myself in front of him one more time and ask for "reassurance" through his actions) and not making him feel as though I've decided the m. is over. Honestly? I think I may just need to "drop the rope" on this one. If he comes back to me...well, maybe then it will feel to him like a good decision, on his own terms.

Still in school today but will sneak peaks at the board now and then. I've been pretty selfishly focused on my own thread due to the limited time...will catch up with you guys when I can.

Sage