Back at work today. Not very productive, I just want to crawl into bed and sob. The bad thing is that I am so busy...both at work and home.
I have to say a speech at this wedding and I am at a loss for words. It is hard to wish someone well when my life is so screwed up.
Last night I was talking to one of my guy friends and he was being sympathetic and then asked me to come over. I told him that I didn't think it was a good idea because I was a little emotionally vulnerable. He said "just come over here for a minute, you need someone to hug you." I eventually went over and he made a pizza, I hadn't had anything to eat all day. He made me feel better and even made me laugh....said he would stand in for H at the wedding if I wanted him to.
Still not sure what I want to do about that. H said he would go...but I have a feeling he wouldn't be much fun. A part of me wants to tell him nevermind, I found someone else to go with....but the other part doesn't want to deal with the questions if H isn't there.
How do things turn around so quick?? Just last week he was saying that we belong together, we are SUPPOSED to be together.
