thanks for the great replies! I appreciate all the support for the way that I feel (and reacted) plus some gentle nudging towards reaching out to h.
I did send him an ecard apology after reading LL's and Caz's posts. It was one of those interactive ones where you try to get tarzan onto a vine -- if you miss, he falls and a tiger comes and carries him away. I said something like "I'm sorry my timing was so bad the other night. I'm truly sorry for many of the things that I said and did".
I AM sorry. I know that I behaved badly in many ways (timing, pulling out the suitcase, calling ow his "lover"). I don't think it's out of line for me to want some discussion around what's going on for us now. ugh. arggh.
blech.
I doubt that he will be responsive to the apology but that's ok with me right now. I need some time too -- and the apology wasn't about expectations anyway.
Sage
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
