2008 = Crazy Year (Still)

[lost_in_space]

OK, new day.

Have exchanged a couple e-mails with OMW. At least I think it is - have to make sure it is not OM accessing OMW e-mail. Just seems strange for her to ask "Anything I should know?" in her last e-mail. Need more validation.

Thinking about yesterday for a moment - really was weird given the convo and sitch on Sunday night. Pup, I take your point - she thinks I will simply not want to rock the boat and not mention it anymore. He*l, have done that before, too many times in trying to be the nice guy. BUT now the chains are off and the fight begins (she will realize that soon, especially if/when she hears of me contacting OMW).

Anyway, after a small bump in the road yesterday with me, I see that I am really no worse off than I was a couple weeks ago, despite what was said. We are both still at home, still in the same bed, still talking (although yesterday was about small stuff) and still being a family. In fact, I really felt good about ME last night after the grad (did I say S13 was a handsome young man? oh yeah, guess I did...). Talked to folks that I have not talked to for a while (even had a good chat with the mom of D16 friend - mom just finished chemo and is feeling great, but I have never talked to her about that).

My resolve to see this to the end, whatever that may be, is actually getting stronger with incidents / discussions like Sunday. I believe very little of what I hear and half of what I see. The half of what I see to believe includes taking family pictures last night and her still being in the same house (although she may be hoping for me to get fed up and leave - she has minimal income to support herself - FFC of that because I am a "stubborn Ukrainian" after all).

Oh yeah, and she started telling me of somewhere she has to go in Sept - so again, we are looking down the road, albeit in a small way.

Anyway, should get to work. Will be here thoughout the day, but since not as bummed out as yesterday, best get at it!