Hope4us struggle, part 6

[Hope4us]

I know what you mean Pup. That's why I mentioned that if she came to me and said she wanted to ML I wouldn't be ready, not yet. I want some kind of commitment from her first. Not a "I'm here for good and everything is ok", but maybe "I really want to work on this and ML is one of the first steps".

So last night I kept up with my active listening and detaching at the same time. WW had sent me some IM's yesterday afternoon saying her boss is being a real knob today. I told her she could tell me all about it when we got home. And she did. She talked for probably an hour straight with just a few comments from me. I validated all I could. She told me about any upcoming plans she had, i.e. Hair appt tonight, shopping Wed or Thurs, etc. And she was laughing, smiling more than she has in a long time. Leaning over the counter talking to me which was killing me cause the girls were looking me right in the face. But that creeping suspision sets in and wonders why so happy/upbeat? Is it because it's been 3 months of NC and she's finally getting through WD or is it because there's been contact and OM is playing her again?

But here's where I'm a little confused. We need a new bath towel bar and I was going to go look for one last night. I asked WW if she wanted to go along and pick it out because she's a lot more picky about that stuff than I am. She asked where I was going. I told her to Lowe's. She asked which one (we have 2 equal distances from us) and I said I thought to the one to the south. She replies "ok, you just go". Then she said something about the shopping Wed or Thurs which would be to the stores North of us. Was she going to go along and actually take me shopping with her if I'd have said the Lowe's to the north? If so, why didn't she just say? Is she so hung up on us being together all the time (her big complaint through all this) that she didn't want to change my plans because that would mean I would be changing my plans for her? Hope that makes sense.....

Anyway, I went, couldn't find anything that would work for us so I went home. She talked some more, and in my best DB fashion, when there was a break in the talk I picked up my book to read. She turned on that stupid Bachlorette show and I told her I was going to the bedroom to watch T.V. without saying goodnight.

So of course this morning, right on que she comes into the bedroom/master bath before I'm out of the shower. More and more it seems like she's slowly working herself back into the "couples place".

Then first thing this morning she's sending me more IM's. Granted they're work related, but things seem to be making progress....