Sage, I was rereading DR yesterday (advised to by BB!) and it specifically addressed what you were hoping to get from your H: reassurance. It said you will be looking for a SIGN and won't find it. You might want to reread that part, about the H coming back, it will probably validate the feelings you are having over this. Won't make the feelings any less, but will validate them in any case.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
