Quote: To be totally honest, I find myself still feeling the pull of trying to control h's fidelity -- not just a cheeseless tunnel but a whole fantasy land built of cheese!
LOL!!!!!
Quote: There's more work to be done here. I'm just not sure where to go...and how to get there.
each day you are getting closer and closer to where it is you need to be..each day you learn more and more about yourself and about your r with h...you are headed in the right direction..sometimes the best trips are those that we are not quit sure were it is we are going and only have vauge directions..but when we get there we know we are there and proud to have gotten there the way we did. the journey may be longer but in the end you've learned more and appreciate the arival all the more.
oh ya, I totally hear you on the small stuff, the sharing of e-mails, where and what was eaten etc...seems silly but in reality it isn't it's letting you in on his life. my h does this at times too...I still find that I am reserved...was part of my 180 during seperation to not be such a babbling brook about my day to day and it has stuck...wonder if it bothers him??
