Thanks for checking on me, smartcookie. Today is a so-so day. I haven't broken down - yet - so I view it as somewhat of a good day I've been reading the posts on this website like crazy and you're right - it does help me get some perspective on what my husband might be feeling. Although truthfully, since the separation first began, we've been able to be completely honest with each other about our feelings in a way we were never able to while living together. Go figure...
Every day is a constant struggle - emotionally, mentally, and sometimes physically. I'm just so tired of the turmoil, the confusion, the guilt, the pain...
There's got to be a light at the end of the tunnel somewhere, and that's the thought that gets me through every single day.
I'm glad you're having a slightly better day, but it's okay to break down. Tears are healing. I know what you mean about the exhaustion of day to day struggle. There were a few nights I left the house just to get away from the constant strain of being around him. That has passed for us now. I don't remember one specific day that it was gone. Just all the sudden I realize it is, & it's not exhausting just to discuss one teeny little thing.
Now that you guys are able to be honest with your feelings, does it feel like you're making progress ? or just re-hashing the old junk ? Are you two in MC ?
M 19 years, MC for 8 months, DB'd for 8 months 4 kids; 18, 15, 14, & 10 I was never meant to be a doormat. It took me years of therapy to become assertive enough to stop his abuse.