"It makes me feel like a failure. I told myself that it would never/could never happen to me again. It is, I can't stop it. I don't want to live my life alone. I don't want to be a bitter grumpy old man like my dad. I can't believe it has happened to me again.
It sucks a pecker and I'm pissed at myself for being an ass and letting it happen. I'm pissed at recognizing that it was happening but not doing a damn thing about it until it was too late. I'm pissed at her for not trying."
I can empathize with these statements, after my 1st divorce I swore to myself it would never happen again, I would never feel that pain. I told myself fool me once shame on you fool me twice shame on me, and sure as H$LL, I let it happen again right before my eyes. I was even so blind to it that I was blaming her for taking the marriage for granted and angry that she wasn't trying, when in reality it was me that was letting it go not saying that is you now, just what I was feeling. One of the things my W said to me was that you were so worried about screwing up a second marriage that you didn't even see it happening.
This is why I looked to you the simalarities were eerie. Do I know exactly how you feel? No I wouldn't persume that but I do understand where you might be.
I don't think you are screwed up, you are just maybe numb? I will be your friend, I will listen, I will throw my twig and berries away and even cry with you...
