You, are not hearing the message in all that I post to you. This is about YOU....not her. You do not carry the love for her, you do not keep having faith for her, and you do not make your decisions based on her. YOU DO, SAY, FEEL, AND ACT the way that YOU want to.
I guess I'm not. I have been doing, saying, feeling and acting the way I want. She is not dictating what I do. As a matter of fact I'm doing what I want, she really does not know what I'm doing. All she knows is my cell is with me and if she needs me then I can be reached. There is really no communication at all now.
So your saying, do what I want. Don't give a rats ass about her but fight for my M till the end?
I'm already looking back Ian. I feel I've done all I can do. I don't know what else there is to do except kiss her ass. Am I supposed to kiss her ass, let her walk over me though this then feel good about myself when it's over.
Do I just keep playing nice when she gives me the daily bitch fit? Do I just keep making her dinner, meeting her at the car?? Do I just keep on and on and on doing what I'm doing? Do I just change for the better and continue as is even though she paints me as a bad father during mediation...Do I just act "as if" when she says my D is better off staying with her step mom when W is away on business trips than staying with me?? Even though I've always been the one to keep D?? Due to the things she said Ian there is now a transition period that has to take place before D can stay overnight in my new place..is that fair Ian? 3 weeks before D can stay overnight when I move out...I'm the one who changed the first diaper Ian..I'm the one who was there when she was sick..I'm the one who went to the doctor. I'm the one who took care of her when my W's shitty attitude started..
I'm the one.
Your post has confused me. I'm not pissed at you. I care about you and don't know you from Adam. I don't want you to get pissed at this post and my questions or rant or whatever it is I'm doing.
You tell me to get her out of my thought process and that I am not done. You tell me this is all about me and I feel it is. I'm GAl'ing like crazy with no regard really. You say I don't need a 2x4 but feel like I've just been thumped with a 8x8. then you tell me to get back in the game and fight for my M.
I know you believe in me and I know other people do too. I'm confident in my self..but it's pretty clear that I don't know what the hell I'm doing..or I'm doubting like hell...
