Today I did have a sharp down ride in my heart. I literally did get that sick feeling again. I E-mail W to find out about getting son a sitter. I did not know if she already had plans. Her response was "That’s up to you to arrange. It’s either there or you’re Mothers. Wherever he goes, he’s going to be miserable."
I lost it. I felt like just calling home and saying “Forget it lets just file" LUCKLY I had E MAIL addresses from Friends I met here. (Prier the unrealistic takeover/ rule change) that I could fall upon. Their responses helped me make it through the day. W was not home when I got home so I called my sister and she said she should be able to watch son that weekend. I then talked to son. He really had no problem with going over to my sisters. (Later I told him I would get him a new DS game to take over with him. But Like I said he had no problem before I offered the game. So all that is left is my dog. My mom will take care of that. 17 more days... I am Soooo far out of my comfort zone. I am scared, nervous, worried, light hearted all at the same time.
Later Husband
And if I claim to be a wise man, well It surely means that I don't know
