Quote: I'm jealous of jethro's breakthru. I'm scared that the reason h. doesn't tell me things is because he still doesn't really know if he wants to be with me. I'm scared that he's still looking for an out -- that I'm ok "for now" but that he'll never feel as though he can be honest with me. I'm scared he's reading this and thinking "she's never happy. I'm gonna leave"
I want to feel like part of a team.
Ditto. And add to that "I'm scared H is going to pull the trigger before he gives us time to work through this and see if anything is there."
My H took the kids to dinner last night, then came in after to look at S drums, play pool, watch some TV. I left them alone in the game room. Then of course, this am I am wondering "was this the right thing?" Always, always questioning.
My H told the boys he bought the four of us basketball tickets for next year... what does that mean? Is he coming home soon? Questioning, questioning...
H told the boys to "take care of your mom." Is he NOT coming back?? Questions, questions.
Why am I always SO unsettled???? Never on an even keel. Is it because I feel half of me is missing??
Sorry to rant on your thread, but I completely agree with where you are coming from, except of course, that you are dating your H and I am sitting in the other room letting mine have his space. Argh!!
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
