HeartScared, I have also turned to God in this troubeling time. It is amazing the amount of strength it has given me. I pray so much now, when I never used to unless if it was with my husband before dinner (Thanking God for our Blessings).
Now, I need to turn our Reconciliation over to God also. It is my only hope. I know I cant change my H and he seems to be detatching from me again since our argument this week end.
We hadnt had a fight in a while, since I was just biting my lip about his drinking, rejecting me to go sit at bars, and flirting. So I "acted as if" for as long as I could then when I got a little bit of alcohol in me at our friends surprise party its like all of my emotions come flooding back.
I agree with you when you say to not contact him and let him come to me. However, tonight is the very last time his band will play together and I feel like I should be there to see them whether or not we are in a rut. I have a feeling that I will go, and as soon as they are done playing I will say a quick "hi" and then leave.
I guess I feel like I need to support him, despite the conditions of our M. Plus, if I didnt go - he would probably get more upset with me for dissing him because I always go watch them play.
I am hoping it will actually be a good ice breaker since we havnt really seen each other or talked much since the argument. We both know that we will not get into any of our issues out in public, so it should be a good way to ease the tension I am hoping.
Wish me luck, and I will update tonight or tommorow with how things went. Thanks again, TIPPER
