I just received an email from my H saying that he wanted to move forward with mediation to get a legal seperation. In the state I live in (MO) he can take that doc anytime after 90 days and have it turned into a final D. That is his decision and I am not going to fight him on it. I does make me feel sad that this is the journey he has decided to take, one that is running away from his fears instead of tackling them head on.
After I recieved the email (classy way to deliver the news) I called him and told him that I just wanted him to be happy and if this is what he wanted then I would go along with it. I asked him how serious his relationship was with the other woman. Here is the really sad part....he said that he has seen her only a few times over the months. Yes, it has been physical but he has no interest in persuing a relationship with anyone (including me). He is working on himself only. That is the focus of his journey. I had to wonder if SHE knew that he felt this way. I can not believe how far he has fallen, to toy with peoples emotions the way he is without regaurd to the pain he is causing. Again, the only sliver of hope that I have is that he is in IC and looks forward to his weekly sessions. I hope one day he will see his way through the fog.
It really is scary that this possibly could end in a D, but its not over until I decide that it is over for me.
Last edited by brokenhearted; 06/23/0805:41 PM.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
