Hope4us struggle, part 6

[Hope4us]

Point taken Pup. I guess I'm not doing it out of spite, but I am enjoying the idea that she may be WANTING me, finally.

I don't want to reject her. I just don't know if she's really looking for me to initiate something or if she's just trying to get a feel for how she feels. I also think maybe she thinks that if she initiates anything that I'll automatically think everything is ok and that couldn't be further from the truth, but to get to ok something has to give.

I'm just scared of more rejection. It was only a couple weeks ago when I was grabbing her shoulder when I went to bed that she made some under the breath comment that gave me the impression that she didn't like it. So can something change that radically in a couple weeks?

I know you're probably thinking "what a wimp". And I agree with you that it seems she's been throwing out all these signals that she wants some attention physically, but again, I'm just so scared and tired of rejection it makes it hard to put myself out there again.