No, I didn't think that. Just that a lot of people suggest doing that and he thinks I'll do that, but I can't.
This morning before I went out, I sent her a Myspace message with pictures from the weekend and a link to my blog for the "rest of the story". I feel so sick. She read it and her profile now says, "thinking this is the worst day of my life" and her mood is "crushed". Now I feel bad for her. Maybe she really didn't know that he was married and all that was going on with us. She just thought she found a nice guy. I don't know.
So he calls me and says, "now that you got that out of your system, stabbing me in the back like that, are you ready to settle down and go to the transportation briefing for me?" WTF? I told him that I wouldn't be taking care of any of his business anymore. He said that the transportation thing was for my stuff because his little bit of stuff will fit in his truck so going to the briefing was for my benefit.
I feel so sick. I wish I could calm down. I want to sleep but my heart is racing. Pray for me. Man, I wish I could get through this better. I was doing so well. Reminds me of the Scripture: "You were running a good race. Who cut in on you?" Well, hm....that would be ME. :-(
