Hope4us struggle, part 6

[Hope4us]

I know the story and I know what you're saying. I'm just so freakin gun shy right now.

Here's the thing. DB says to do what I've been doing and when you see some positive signs, then make your approach, what ever the approach may be about. And in the last month I've tried to be more out there and engaging with her and that's when she retreats. So now I'm just plain SCARED that if I approach her for some affection (and I'm talking about just a hug or something) will it be pushing and will she retreat again?

Another part of me wants to MAKE her make the first move at some type of intimacy. Let her 'desire' it to the point she makes the first move. Heck, I am kind of enjoying this. Let her pursue ME!

We'll see how the week goes and see if there are any opportunities. This is the HARD part. Knowing when to push things along and when to not push. If they'd just SAY what they want!