For the longest time I felt like I was on the outside looking in at some other person that was living my life. I'd go thru all the motions trying to maintain what was normal, do most of the right things so folks don't notice my forgetfulness, get just enough done to keep my head above water, and much of it I can't remember getting done. Crying? OMG, I think I got dehydrated shedding so many tears!
lodo, your foundation is not gone. You are still you, that kind and polite and caring guy that has very much to offer his friends and the world. Get out your building blocks and keep stacking on your foundation until you get where you want to be.
Chin up, eyes on the horizon.
Live your life while you are still living. Riding the trail less traveled.