I think it's about just an overall lack of respect and consideration on her part. I mean, she's getting what she wants and says she wants it to be civil but acts like an ass..I think that's the problem and it pisses me off.
Tell me about it!!! I've done the avoidance dance as well. The minute I am with him for longer than 3 min, I let some anger out... I can't shut up, I can't hold it back. Unless you let it out someway, it's going to stay there, waiting...
Go back and find the trail, see where it leads you. Why do you feel this way? Again. Can you control her behaviour? Nope. My C told me fear is a second generation emotion. It usually is connected with fear(I hope I remember correctly, my memory sucks lately, I have posted this before I think, I'll go check). Do you feel bitter too?
Mike, I am so sorry. Everything is so connected and hurts very much. Maybe anger will put you on survival mode... K
No not bitter. I don't think I'm hurt anymore.
I don't think I'm in survival mode because I know I'll be Ok.
I'm not trying to avoid I don't think. I mean the things I'm doing I want to do as far as GAL go's. I'm not doing them to avoid her.
I'm not trying to control anything because I know I can't.
It's just a lack of respect thing I think..I sense no respectorconsideration from her and it really makes me angry. Not angry all the time but like flashes of anger for short periods..like I'll think of something that was said and just get so pissed..beyond pissed, then I'll level out and be Ok for a while.
I don' know what it is..not the rollercoaster I don't think. It's different now..maybe an Anger coaster??
