Rage really did the trick today. I'm going to see if I can work the angry angle b/c I've seen myself give in to being down instead of hitting the gym like I should. So, I'm going to ride it for a bit and see what comes of it.
As for the giving up thing, isn't weird how the human spirit can be so broken and our minds will allow us to honestly believe there is no hope of ever being happy again? I was in a pretty deep little funk today - to the point where I was going to cry and I thought "what would your suicide note read" - pretty weird stuff.
I'm not going to off myself b/c that is the worst thing I could do to my D, but the fact that we can feel so broken and then think so darkly so quickly is amazing and scary at the same time.
Hey, I'm done fighting sleep, so I'm out of here. I'll talk w/ you all tomorrow.
Get some rest, Lodo, my man. Haven't you done enough editing for one night?
