Thanks sg....but on your second post I think you have me confused with someone else. There is also kml (not klm) that posts...I believe she is a doctor.
Well, so much for all the well wishes. It's over. I am filing tomorrow. I don't need the 48 hour rule.
Today H and I went shopping for a coat for him to wear to the wedding. I am very emotional right now because of all the wedding stuff and also because of the anniversary of the bomb. We had a long R talk today about trust and I really thought H and I were on the same page. He went on and on about how he is so sorry that he hurt me and he lives with the stress of that each day.
So anyway, after I went running tonight I thought I would go by H's so that I could see the pants that he wanted to wear with his coat. I knocked on the door and then peeked in the window and didn't see anyone but his car was there. I knocked again, then figured he may be taking a nap so I was about to leave. The door opened. He looked flushed and out of breath. I said...are you ok? He said "Yeah, I was just sleeping." So I told him I wanted to see the coat. He said it was in his car so I went out and got it. I could tell he was very nervous. I came back in and asked if he had water because I had just been running. He said no. I said, "well, i'll just go get a glass because I need some. I started walking towards the kitchen and he grabbed my arm. He said "Let's go outside".
So we go outside and I am really confused. I started asking what was wrong. Then he finally said it..."Somebody is in there." I said "A GIRL?????" He said yes. I freaked. I went back in the apartment and she was crouched down hiding in the kitchen beside the refrigerator!!!!!!!! I lost it. After the talk we had today.
I am better than this. I am better than finding my H with another woman a SECOND time. I have been a wreck ever since I left there. If it is possible, I think this is worse than the first time. I honestly can't even believe he let me leave. I was shaking so badly that I could hardly put the key in the ignition.
My mom came home and has calmed me down a little. That is the only thing that is better this time around is that I wasn't completely alone.
I can't deal with this. He obviously doesn't know how to be in a committed faitful relationship. There are plety of people out there that do.
Oh yeah, and this was all completely my fault because I didn't call before I came over. Right. My fault. He actually had the gall to say that.
