in limbo and an emotional mess...

[MAZ]

thanks for your condolences Sugar, I am just glad my grandmother can finally rest the last week was hard on her, well its sunday nite and H just left we had a good talk about a lot of things, I think it went well, we'll just see what happens, H is going to come to the funeral with us on Tuesday, and is going to come to dr. with me on July 1st, as we are both concerned about a few things with the pregnancy just because of our ages so there are additional risks at 40+ along with the stress i've been under, and that I haven't really been eating, etc. over the last few months, that way we know what we are dealing with as far as that is concerned, H had his list of pros and cons as do I, but still had a smile,,I felt ok when he left of course would rather he didn't have to leave, I told H I didn't want him coming home just because of this and he said he would never do anything he didn't want to do, that he does miss us,, so we'll see where it goes from here,,,I feel better now that we have finally talked. Well i'm off to get some rest, crazy next two days with my grandmothers funeral and everything... thank you again.