Just picked up my son from the W's apartment.

Seeing her made me choke up again, but I think I hid it pretty well. I kept thinking back to our wedding, and how she used to look at me....I could see how much she loved me in her eyes. Now, there is nothing.

The way she teared up when I stepped up on the stage and sang "You Are So Beautiful" to her...the first and last time she ever heard me sing despite the fact that I had played in a band for 10 years. When I stepped down, she hugged me and said "You know, you have a beautiful voice. I'll love you forever. I promise."

All those memories have been killing me lately.

Our son says it best: "I miss mommy very much."

I do, too...more than she probably knows, son.