Back to square one

[Hope4us]

Today I have laid in bed all day. I'm still in my pjs now. I didn't feel like going to church, I didnt feel like having coffee with H, i didn't feel like going out in the sunny day, I didn't feel like going for a bike ride with H and S, and I didn't feel like running errands. What did I do instead? I laid in bed. I knew I should get up, but I didn't want to. I knew H wanted me to and I just didn't want to. H mentioned he might go out with his brother tonight and I said I thought that sounded great and that I would stay home and watch movies. Now, it is raining so he won't go. I just want to be alone. I wish I could just go to some place where no one knows me today. Maybe a beach......just lay by a beach and read books and magazines all day. That sounds so wonderful to me right now.

One word....WITHDRAWAL. It will get better, but until you go through it your H doesn't stand a chance. My counselor told me it's just best to exist together while you go through it. Don't expect ANYTHING your H does to have any affect on you because until you get through it, nothing he does will mean anything to you. Once you get through WD, then you'll be able to make progress with your H. Don't make any decisions about him and your M until you've given yourself 6 months - 1 year to get over OM.