I looked back through my emails and it's interesting how the argument went from "the little things were annoying me" to "I need space to determine what my real feelings for you are," followed by "I don't want to be involved with OM but I can't deny my feelings." This last was when she moved out, and, after meeting with IC, announced she wanted a D and felt "relieved and good" about ending the R. Her line now is that she is relieved and thrilled to be on her own "or at least comfortable."
So, I interpret this as the slide from OM to her need for complete independence. No one ever tries to cage her, so she tends to think the possibility someone might cage her is grounds for fleeing. Crazy. And immature. And the OM is her inability to handle being in a committed R. I have to wonder how many others there have been.
Okay, didn't mean to babble. Just convincing myself of all the reasons I don't want her back without a MAJOR effort on her part - which I know she won't do.
