I was hyper-critical of other people, of W, of SD8; I've stopped
My demeanor was down, depressed; I am much more positive in my outlook
I was withdrawn and uncommunicative -- I make an effort to clearly express my feelings to W
I know that this has made a big impact on my ability to move forward and a big impact on how I interact with people. W notices and appreciates it. However, she tells me she is afraid it won't stick. I don't think of this as the old/new me. I think these two sides of me have always been a part of me, and always will. The difference is choosing which aspect of ourselves we like and will accentuate, and which are destructive and need to be suppressed. I think if we don't realize this, the default seems to be the path of least resistance -- which tends to be destructive. I don't know why that is, but the constructive side of us seems to take more work, requires us to be self-aware. That's really the biggest change in me as a result of this whole crappy deal -- achieving that awareness and realizing that it takes work, constantly, or else we regress.
Me45 W35 M6 T8 D16 SD11 D0 Dec 07: Bomb July 08: Busted! Thread
