I am dying to ask him if he's still seeing OW. It's killing me! I know that I need to be nonchalant in my dealings with him so that's not really a topic I should broach but.....agh!!! He just sent me a copy of his orders (which say that he's moving with dependents) and his report date is Aug 31. That's good that I have an extra couple of weeks. He also sent a letter for me to take to transportation that says that he wants me to sit in for him in the transportation briefing. He gave me instructions for what he wants me to do. I was tempted to respond, jokingly, "what's in it for me?" but instead just replied with a brief, "Ok."
I have to stay busy and let this thing with OW runs its natural course (secretly, I've been praying that she does unattractive stuff like picking her nose in public or gets annoyingly jealous if he talks to the elderly cashier at the convenience store or whatever scenarios I can think of. lol)
From reading DR, I've been trying to set goals and list things that would be "signs" that things are changing. Like it says in the book, "I'll know...... when.......happens" A big thing for me is if I notice him starting to pursue me (even in small ways), that will speak volumes. I've been reading in For Men Only what it means to a wife to be pursued and light bulbs went off. A big part of my insecurity over the years has come from him pursuing other women online and NOT pursuing me whereas he used to "pursue" me fervently.
Anyway, gotta run and get ready for church. Wish me luck today. Weekends are always hard for resisting contacting him. Have a good day everyone.
