YUCKY STUFF first:

My H is a serial cheater. Well, technically its not cheating to him because he is 'divorced' already. I snooped for the first time since August 2007 and he is 'dating' someone. Sexual flirty incoming texts. Tons of them. They were together last night, then he came to MY house and changed and went to work. I looked at his phone when he was in the shower, he keeps it out in the open now. She is, so it seems, married with kids. Who are these people out there in the world? Holy crud.

All his outgoing texts were deleted except for mine over the last few days. No pictures except for the girls, ones I have sent to him and ones he has sent to me.

This changes nothing for me. Nothing for him. But it hurts.

I will put this divorce on a credit card if I have to. I will refinance and eat ramen noodles for a year if I have to. No more. He will be my friend and the father of my beautiful innocent children.

GOOD STUFF:

The race! I did it!!!!! Well, *we* did it. My roommate from college (also divorcing her cheating H, so we ran in the name of 'rage' lol) came in town and did it with me. Wow. 5K is a long way, especially with a few hills. But I did it. I made it. We had to walk the first few blocks because there were 60,000+ people there, and nowhere to run!! Then it thinned out and off we went. I couldn't talk, could barely breathe, thought my feet fell off my ankles after the first mile, but we did it. \:\)

H didn't know I was running. I didn't know he was coming over last night while I was out with the girls, and he saw my number. Texted me a 'great job, proud of you' last night.