Holding Pattern

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i think that i am being an idiot. every successful person on this forum talks about becoming friends first. i just spent two incredible weekends with my best friend. my wife was not there and i had a few little slips, but bottom line is that even if things don't go my way we made great memories as friends.

i keep looking at her and want for it to be as it was, but as it was was not working either so it needs to be better, much better. and to start that we need to start over. that is what we have been doing and i just need to see that and stop getting in the way because the plan is falling place in front of me.

i learned to handle her absence, and now i just need to handle being around her as friends as well. i am confident that as she goes off to law school next weekend i am leaving her with memories of the man that i know that i am, and that she fell in love with, because i am being the best version of myself and i like it.