Journaling,
So I was gone a week with my son. The thought of having a cigarette crossed my mine but I soon forgot about it. As soon as I am about 10 miles from home that is all I can think about.
When we got home, Wife was taking an online test for some class. So she was preoccupied. Son helped me unpack the jeep and I then put our dirty clothes in the wash. I came in the house and wife was talking with son. I went into his room and stood there for a minute and then took my Wife’s hand and said how about a real welcome home and put her hand on my hip. She gave me a hug but kind of held her body away from mine. She then said you stink.
Ok so I guess I may have sweated but I really did not think so.
I then asked her what she did while we were away. She said she enjoyed being by herself. (Reminds me on what bombs wife said before she left).She also told me she did not get that job she was looking at. She then said her mom has been driving her crazy calling every night about stupid little things. I told her it probably is because I have not been over there everyday and she missed the company. I then noticed her hair was cut. (I LOVE long hair). I asked her if she got it cut and she said yes this morning. She was going to get it cut shorter. She THEN asked how come I shaved my beard. I said I don’t really know why. She said it makes my face look fat.
SIDE NOTE: How come a woman can get away with saying something like that about a man looking FAT but if a man says ANYTHING like that to a woman and it a sin?
Any way I asked her. “Doesn’t my beard make me look older? She said no it makes you look more distinguished.
SO I am not doing this for her. But I am going to grow my beard back. I like the beard because I have to shave less often.
Anyway Wife wanted me to bbq some chicken wings. I told her to make that sauce she makes and I will do it. So she started making the sauce and saw there was no honey left. She asked me if I used the rest of it when I made my marinade last week. I told her yes and I thought I wrote it down to buy more but I guess I did not. I told her when I am through washing the jeep I will go buy some more.
Now this if from the NMMNG book it said “Nice guys” try to hide there mistakes. I did not apologize. But I said yes I did it and I will go buy more.
IT IS GOING TO be A LONG TIME TILL RETRO…
MY MIND IS GOING CRAZY. I thought I was through thinking up scenarios about wife and the OM but they still keep coming back.
I have tomorrow off I want to take care of a few things around the house. Then I can occupy myself at work until RETRO... I am going to ask wife if she wants me to find a sitter for son. I am going to tell her I will tell the person.(probably my sister) that W and I are going on a Pre anniversary weekend get away….
Retro is on the 11th and the 15th is our anniversary...

Oh ya one more thing. Not sure how it came up but while son and I were talking this week the subject about his mom sleeping in his room came up. My son said “It’s her choice”...hmmmmmm

Later

And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know