Potatoes are taking forever to cook....glass of wine #2...
Okay, about your other queries, KAW:
How do I picture my life being like if I truly felt I was as happy as I can be?
Excellent question...I suppose it would look something like it does now. Improvements would be: more affection and flirting, more physical touch including sex, the filling of love tanks...in particular I feel that a few of mine are down some...not exactly sure about CJ's. Although he DID reply to an e-mail of mine that he really enjoys our discussions over dinner and wine.
There would probably be a bit more adventure too, as boredom has been a big issue in the past, particularly for me. Lately, not so much...gee, woner if the bb is helping fill a need???
What else seems to be working is the e-mail contact, although I wonder if there are "Ghosts" attached to that for CJ, he did meet and woo both OW on-line after all.
What am I doing to get there?
Keeping up a postiive PMA, just going with things sometimes, what I did earlier about the lost post (that would have been a major blow out in years past, trust me...and pretty much all my doing).
ALSO...earlier I as about to empty the dishwasher, and realized I'd MUCH rather be on the bb instead. So I decided to ask CJ to take care of the dishes after dinner (He's usually cool with that, especially when I cook)...he'll have to take care of that then.
Not payback...but rather a decision to NOT build resentment.
Now, about my new thread title...will give that some thought.
Time to check on the stew.
Shiny
P.S. KAW did you have any idea your post would spur this much activity??? Thanks!
