Had a dream this morning, I was changing some songs around on my playlist that has been dedicated to xf since we had been together. S9 wanted to play and get involved(clearly wanting attention) I snapped at him. In my ear I heard very snotty, yeah, we know what you have been doing with your instinct..... The last piece of a puzzel maybe? I don't know. But what I do know is that I have been putting so much energy into researching, and getting advice, and talking about XF that I have been neglecting other parts of my life. Again, say what you will but we were a family, and it is a family that we will be again. I have a strong faith and instinct about this, but for whatever reason it hasn't been enough for me. My own doubts have been killing me. It is time to be me. She'll be back, I guess I just need to stop worrying and go with my faith. I need to go back to being the man that God made me to be. Stop living for answers and start living for my family..... No matter the condition of it right now. At this point, this could be more about me learning, than her. Anger and manipulation can't go on for ever. Maybe I need to be ready before things can go on. I am a good man and she a good woman, we both and especially the 3 boys deserve what each other has to offer.
Last edited by phoenyx; 06/21/0808:14 PM.
I don't care what you think, as long as it's about me.
