Hi Lost I have been WAW for 12 months now and while I can not say I am any closer to making a decision to come back to the M. I'm also ont running away at breakneck speed either. The emotional impact of just making that decision and the grief associated with it are huge. Give yourself sometime to adjust. Some days are easier to stomach than others. It is a rollercoaster, you are not alone feeling that way.
Smartcookie gives some good advice. If your H can not or is not willing to do simple basic things you NEED from him, after you have asked him and he understands what you are asking for, then you may have your answer.
but accepting it is difficult, BTDT (been there done that).
Keep working on you, through counseling, talking things through with friends, or here, find a way to let some of those emotions go as best you can.
[hugs]
Divorced 03/2010 Mom to two amazing kids
Taking the road less traveled because those encountered on the way may be just as unique.