sorry to hear about your nana having some health issues. If I even detected the slightest bit of guilt on your part for what is happening with her (your mention of her over hearing some things about your sit and staying up all night) I have to tell you to stop it NOW. let this be the push you needed to get back into keeping close to her.
as far as the "issue" and cj's "knowing" about it. I asked if you were assuming he knows how it makes you feel, how it really makes you feel.
when you reject me or don't inititate I feel unnapreciated, ugly, undesierable, un loved, humiliated etc etc etc.
I know that in the past I never really bothered to express how it makes me feel and instead just focussed on it not being there and that being a problem.
now that I have expressed how it really makes me feel h is at least able to reject with a bit more compation rather than just rejecting not a total solution but it has helped.
