I really do think they actually believe themselves. It's part of the denial, the justification and the rationalization of it all. Those aren't necessarily conscious coping mechanisms. Brain chemicals altered by euphoria and who knows what else in the midlife male brain, along with whatever underlying narcissism abides there.

My H actually teaches this stuff to chaplains--how our "stuff" gets in the way of being healthy and whole, and how to work to get past our stuff. And he's totally and absolutely delusional right now, and I know he believes all the BS he's putting out.


M60
H52
D20
M14 yrs
OW-old gf from 1986
bomb-5/18/08
H filed for D-9/10/08
D final 4/24/09
xH remarried (not OW) 2012